The Truths Found In Dreams

I don't know how people make their way in this world without paying attention to their dreams. I wouldn't know which way to go.

My dreams let me know when my thinking is out of whack; and needs a little fine tuning.

I was recently reminded through my dreams that when I take my focus off what I feel called to do - being distracted by what others do or fail to do - I am headed for trouble - just like a sinking ship.

And it is also through my dreams that my faith in a Power greater than myself (G0d) is constantly being renewed. Over and over again I am reminded that none of us walk alone. Universal support is guiding us all the time - despite our many attempts to block it.

Memories Are For Keeps

This unexpected wave of grief caught me completely off-guard. I didn't recognize this tenacious inertia for what it was. I couldn't understand my reluctance to take the necessary next step on the projects that have been bringing so much joy into my life this past year.

Then I had a dream that I didn't fully understand. In exploring this dream, it took the lid off the feelings that were stirring beneath the inertia.

My friend and mentor turned ninety this past weekend; and there was a big celebration at the country hall. All night long, my eyes were drawn to those fortunate couples who were getting to live out their old age together. I wasn't even aware of the longing that was building up in me as I focused on these people.

Once it all came together for me, I wasn't surprised. I remember now that Easter has been my most difficult time of year since my husband passed away. He always came alive in the Spring after being a little depressed during the winter months. Being a carpenter, he was always called back to work in the Spring. And he could also get busy planting his flower gardens and his vegetable garden.

He was always filled with New Life in the Spring; and it brought so much joy into my heart to watch him work at these things he loved so much. Other people must have felt the same because after a long winter of being "holed up"; they would see him working in his gardens with country music playing away; and they would drop in to watch him work.

At Bible Study today, we got discussing everyone's Easter traditions - and while it brought with it some poignant grief; it also brought to mind many treasured memories.

Memories that are forever mine to keep!

Out Of Sight

My sister expressed some concern because I haven't posted anything for awhile. My apologies to the few who do follow my footsteps on this site.

I have been busy playing in another corner - and since it was something new to me, it was taking up most of my day and ALL of my mental capacity.

I always have to get comfortable with new things in my life before I share the details - it just seems to be my nature.

As some of you know, I have been getting direction and guidance from my dreams for about 28 years. The last couple years, I have been taking part in a small Dream Circle hosted by my brother 2-3 times a week www.rightdreaming.com I have learned a lot from him during that time which increased my understanding of my own dreams.

Well, a couple weeks ago, I stumbled across this site www.experienceproject.com and have been interpretting some of the dreams posted there. If anyone is interested in checking out my activity there, I am using my same name - buddingrose4u.

Life is going well - I have survived another winter and am looking forward to Spring. I have a lot of new things going on in my life - along with a lot of new people. Once I have a better handle on where this is all leading, I will share it with you.

I'm not one to talk unless there is a burning desire to express something, so bear with me. I'm "taking in" and "laying low" more than I am "putting out" these days.(heh)

Dreamwork

It is only recently that I realized that it was my father's pain I spent my lifetime carrying. I never learned how to separate myself from it until I braved the hidden depths, sorted out whose pain was whose, keeping only what was mine to deal with.

I married young and it was a painful experience. At that time in my life, I only knew how to relate to a man through his pain - and my husband was running away from his pain in a bottle instead of dealing with it. It took 17 years for that to claim his life, setting us both free from misery.

This is when I made my first inner journey in an attempt to know myself better and to learn a new way of relating to the world and the people in it. I wanted to learn how to love in a healthier way; and I wanted my life to reflect that love. This is when I discovered the gift of working with my dreams - an ability we all have if we choose to develop it. Over the years, I have used this new found tool to explore the more hidden parts of myself. Dreams make it impossible to deceive yourself - they force you to face even those deep, dark secrets that make it impossible for you to love yourself.